I always felt that my purpose in this world was to be a mom. I have worked with numerous children and taken so many classes on child development that I thought pregnancy and adding a baby to the family would be a breeze. God had blessed us with our first baby girl and as the year anniversary of finding out we were pregnant is creeping up on me, I’ve been reflecting on this last year and how much my heart has grown.
When you get pregnant for the first time and think about anything and everything that could possibly happen. You think of all the things you need to get done and the people you need to call. You think of the things you need to start or stop doing, the foods you shouldn’t eat, the supplements you need to take. You call the doctor and make your first appointment; you read the books and join the support groups. You start to get nervous and take another test, or two, or six. It all starts to become real and you wonder how you’re supposed to do this and if you’ll be a good mom. You start to think about if you’re even ready to become parents. Your emotions go from excited to terrified and everything in between throughout your days and nights. You pray every night that your baby will be healthy and that you do everything right. It all becomes so real when you go to that first appointment and see that little blob on the ultrasound screen. That’s your baby. That’s our baby. Every appointment after that just makes you more and more excited and anxious. Then you finally hit that 20-week mark and find out that little thing growing inside you is a sweet baby girl. Now you can decorate and have the baby shower and buy all the cute outfits. It becomes more of a waiting game and you start counting down the weeks until you can check more things off your to-do list and your baby will finally be in your arms. As you near that 36, 37, 38, 39 weeks, you start to get nervous all over again. Here comes the hard part, the scary part, the expensive part. Every little pain makes your heart jump and your mind think, “is this it, is it time?” “is that normal?”. Eventually, the big day comes. You pack the vehicle, take the dog to your parents’ house, and head to the hospital. You know it won’t be a fast process and you’re in for many hours of excitement and uncertainty. You finally get to the point where your doctor comes and says, “we’re having a baby”. You see your husbands face light up as he watches your beautiful girl come into the world. The nurses put her on your chest and time just stops for a little bit. You think of the past nine months and how it all comes down to this sweet purple, squishy baby cuddling into you. You think of how everything is different now and you aren’t just a couple anymore, but a family. You feel a love that you have never felt before, a whole new feeling. The world outside of you, your husband, and your new baby is silent and distant for a few sweet moments. You take in all the information the nurses give you, ignore the pain and the changes you are going through, and learn all you can on how to do the new things that come with a brand-new baby. When the time comes to go home, your stomach flutters with excitement of the new life that awaits you outside those hospital doors. It’s the longest walk out to your vehicle and load up with the most precious gift from the Lord, to take a nervous, exciting drive home. You walk into your house and see it in a whole new light, you see the late nights up walking the halls, the cuddles on the couch, trying new foods at the table, and taking first steps. Here is the beginning of your new and better life. So. Dear first baby, Thank you. Thank you for showing me what my purpose is. Thank you for showing me this new type of love. Thank you for making the love between your dad and I even stronger. Thank you for being ours. I hope I am the very best mama I can be. I hope we will be best friends, like my mom and me. I hope you have your dad’s work ethic. I hope you grow up strong-willed and kind. I hope you trust in the Lord and know He is the way, the truth, and the life. I can’t wait to see you run around the house chasing the dog. I can’t wait to see you ride ponies at grandma and grandpas, where I once did. I can’t wait to see you buzz around on four-wheelers at the ranch, like your dad once did. I can’t wait to watch you grow and learn. But I am not ready for that yet. Right now, I will take every minute possible snuggling you, holding you, and bonding with you. I will get up with you in the night, I will rock with you and bounce around the house with you, I will change all your blowouts and give you the baths you hate so much. I will soak up every moment I can with you. I will tell you how much I love you every chance I get. Thank you, sweet baby girl, for making me who I am and who I was meant to be. I love you more than you could ever imagine, and always will.
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Shannon Pomplun
1/7/2021 02:20:42 pm
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Jordyn Anderson
1/7/2021 03:55:47 pm
I’m actually sobbing, this is beautiful Faith💕
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Linda Berning
1/8/2021 06:15:24 am
Sweetheart, this is such a beautiful testimonial that all mommies should read. I am trying to type this but it is really hard due to the tears streaming down my face. Words cannot begin to express my pride and love of you. You are so very special. We love the pictures and hope to see our beautiful great grandbaby soon.
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